A Century-old Quest

 Oh, everyone still looking for this elusive  thing called love! …  Yup, even  those    who  are   tagged  as      “fooling around.”  A part of themselves are    undoubtedly   trying to   find  someone    they can    share mutual  exclusivity.   Some   are afraid to commit themselves because  of fears  of getting  rejected,  of being betrayed, of  giving  the best of themselves without the guarantee of being loved back  as much as they  desire, of  being battered emotionally   for  failed expectations or fear of  losing   the freedom they    were  so used  to and have grown   comfortable with.   That is why  they  detach  themselves whenever  they feel   the threat of  falling    deep   into a  relationship   because of lack of guarantees or because  they are   simply  afraid of  getting hurt… again. Sometimes, it becomes     a  person’s defense  mechanism to  withdraw  and create a barrier    that   becomes impassable e to  a prospect lover in order  to protect himself  from being vulnerable.   Sometimes, that person is  afraid  of  responsibility  of loving  raw and of the  weight of risking.

           Others, meanwhile,  are  too preoccupied   in their career  or    family responsibilities  or   their future or themselves  that  they  fail  to notice   love  trying to make itself   recognized. Sometimes, people  are too  engrossed in fantasizing  and romanticizing  that  they  miss  out  the  real  kind of love  trying to get their attention.  Some of them, however, have   become skeptical, perhaps because they have  been  faced  with   harsh  realities   in loving or that they have learned from the many  broken relationships   they had  before.  Perhaps also they   are  just being  realistic and are finding   it hard to  be convinced that  someone  can actually love them  well enough  to  jump  with them  trough life’s   ebb and flow. 

           Some people, on the other hand, are simply content for having found love   in other    forms than   romance. Yet there are those who    are ready   to   fall in love and be swept away into the   strong  current of romantic  love affair   but never   really   finding that   special half  whom they can  entrust  their  hearts.  It seems  that despite  having  received propositions of  affection,  their  hearts  can’t seem to beat faster for a special  person whom  they are   utterly secured… and the quest continues.

        In the end, no matter how we have consumed ourselves  with lovers  “here and there” or   with preoccupations that  seem  important to us,   a  part of ourselves   longs   to fall in love. And that when that   desire  is  so  strong   and  it happens that  we are brave enough  to plunge,  we discover that  the unknown  is   worth  discovering. And no matter how  busy  we are,  skeptic or cynical  or  unmoved  and unaffected, we cannot  evade the  fact that   we want  someone to  grow old   with.  And no matter   how exhilarating    being   in one relationship  to another  is  or    how  liberating    being alone can be,   being  with one   person to   another  just  gets tiring,     so does being alone.